Silvia’s story

Ever since I was a child, I’ve had a lot of worries. I have now realized that death was my biggest fear.  When I started university, it has all got worse. I have moved into a new city away from my boyfriend, friends and family. Initially, I started isolating; I preferred to watch television until late at night instead of going out and I didn’t even want to follow the university classes. As you can imagine, that wasn’t the best way to meet new people. Actually, I had only one friend during my first year at university.

I knew I had to do something about it

I have been unhappy for a very long time. I used to cry a lot and I only had a good time when I was visiting my old school friends who lived in other cities or when I was going back to my hometown for vacation. I knew I had to do something about it, so I started going out even though I didn’t want to. I gradually started feeling better after meeting new people. That unfortunately didn’t last long.  I was infected with a virus and I had to stay at home for almost a month and to make matter worse, this happened during the examination period in my first year at university. As a result, I didn’t give any of the exams. So, I stayed home with my parents who took care of me but I couldn’t meet anyone else because the virus was contagious. This was the point when I started experiencing nosophobia; I developed a fear of getting cancer. I was checking my lymph nodes all the time for tumours and I was scared of dying.

I have never asked for professional help

As time went by, I started overcoming my phobias although they keep on coming back every now and then. I am still very anxious; I still worry about everything and sometimes I feel lonely and worthless. I have never asked for professional help even though I thought about it a lot. Who knows? I might do it eventually.

Silvia

5 october 2016

Name and photo are fictitious. Photo:  Flickr